| What was it again? ;-x |
[Nov. 7th, 2008|11:24 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | this car | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mischievous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | guess | ] |
"What's the frequency, Kenneth?" is your Benzedrine, uh-huh
I was brain-dead, locked out, numb, not up to speed
I thought I'd pegged you an idiot's dream
Tunnel vision from the outsider's screen
I never understood the frequency, uh-huh
You wore our expectations like an armored suit, uh-huh
I'd studied your cartoons, radio, music, TV, movies, magazines
Richard said, "Withdrawal in disgust is not the same as apathy"
A smile like the cartoon, tooth for a tooth
You said that irony was the shackles of youth
You wore a shirt of violent green, uh-huh
I never understood the frequency, uh-huh
"What's the frequency, Kenneth?" is your Benzedrine, uh-huh
Butterfly decal, rear-view mirror, dogging the scene
You smile like the cartoon, tooth for a tooth
You said that irony was the shackles of youth
You wore a shirt of violent green, uh-huh
I never understood the frequency, uh-huh
You wore our expectations like an armored suit, uh-huh
I couldn't understand
You said that irony was the shackles of youth, uh-huh
I couldn't understand
You wore a shirt of violent green, uh-huh
I couldn't understand
I never understood, don't fuck with me, uh-huh
*you know your a star* |
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| I like Interpol |
[Jan. 2nd, 2008|12:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Buggles - Video Killed The Radio Star | ] |
HELL YEAH I DO!!!
I refuse to get a my space. I thought about it for like 2 seconds last week 'cause Marylou asked me to, but nah. The thought of ratting my friends is sickening. People keep asking me to join but I say "no,no,no." But if Paul Banks asked me to join, TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY! Ah yes, I'm going to marry that man. He's the singer of Interpol.... *sigh* sexy sexy man. Here he is now!
Oh I would make him happy in more than one way... I could make him really happy down there, YUM! He's awesome live. They really truly rock. I don't think I've been to a crappy concert. Like one were I could be like "oh that band sucked so much ass live." No I like good music. But oh, PAUL. Tegan and Sara kick ass live too. |
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| Dear Amy |
[Dec. 19th, 2007|01:51 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
Sucks I don't know where to find her. |
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| And in this town that chews you up and spits you out before you go. |
[Dec. 10th, 2007|10:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Shitville, CA | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fobia - Camila | ] |
YAY me, I'm back in that valley and dying to go back home.
I was never home sick when I left this place but now I'm home sick for Tampa. It did become home for me, and I miss it so much. It's like the Twilight Zone being back here. I forgot were shit is at, I can get along so much better in Tampa. Want directions to busch gardens? Moe's? The Movies? The Castel? I can get you there! Directions to anything around here? I couldn't tell you what street to turn out of my sister's neighborhood. I have to get back. I'll move with Homar later. OH YEAH, my baby is in Germany. I'm so proud of him. He's stationed in Ramstein.
MY SISTER HAD HER BABY!!!! Emily Akane, she is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. She can't do anything that isn't perfectly cute in everyway. I love her so blood much. You want some awesome advice that worked for my sister? Watch the Secret. Your life is out there waiting to begin. Good shit.
*Entre Las Ramas Lo Que Siempre Sone, Oh Valla Sorpresa Que Lindo Bebe* |
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| I only up date when I'm drunk... |
[Oct. 9th, 2007|11:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Tampa, FL | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Killers - Believe Me Natalie | ] |
It's fun, I guess it's 'cause I want to write down what I'm thinking but not have to go through the trouble of finding a pen... 'cause I know where the paper is at.
So as non of you know, this is the eve of my birthday. Yes, thank the lord that 24 years ago he blessed your planet with moi! Think about it, he could have been like "planet Lingo-three! I bless you with the present of EVELYN!!! She is a Libra, PRAISE ME!!! and don't listen to bob marley." But no, he had mercy on your souls, and gave you me, a drunk slut who only cares about getting laid, has the hardest time keeping friends yet makes those friends feel awesome while there around... not really. I shall remind you, I've been drinking. I like Kurt Vonnegut.
UPDATE TIME!!!
So I've been back with Homar for a while. It's been awesome except for the bad times. Haters have erased all of the pix that were on my lj, which I find comical. I saw Interpol live and they were the FUCKEN BEST EVER!!! I had a miscarriage, and a d & c last week, I am unemployed and living off my boyfriend/half ass fiance. long story.
Oh the miscarriage was fun. It takes me back to jr. high school and a speech that was given to my math class from a crack head. She was telling the class her sob story and I hear something about her being pregnant, when she was done with he speech she gave us a chance to ask questions and mine was "so what happened to your baby?" (I wasn't doing drugs at the time thank you) and she looked at me like "I went over it" and she said "I miscarried" and prosited to explain what it meant. Thats how I found out what a miscarriage was. Funny. And it became such a big part of my life, from my mom, to my sister's two babies, to my own. You know you wish it had been your's... you know who you are and you know what you've told me.
So I'm going back to the valley to help my sister with her baby while Homar is in Germany. I'm not staying there for long... GOD NO! I'm getting out one way or another. There is shit there, and people know me there. Fuck I like Tampa, not Florida so much... Hollywood was awesome. I have places to stay and start over. I'm still a proud Cali Grrrl!!!
*God Help Me Somehow!!!* |
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| WHAT IS UP MY BITCH!!! |
[Dec. 7th, 2006|11:01 pm] |
It is not a plural at this time, I know that Addy is the only one that reads this.
So I was reading my entries and I hadn't writened anything in like forever. My life is awesome! I party like it's 1999 with my beast-friends MIRA and my {yes my} Jamie, its fun ass hell. Mira can't even drink my VODKA IT'S SSSSOOOO STRONG. and what.
I miss alot of people but Mira's hot pussy makes up for all of you assholes who don't talk to me for some shit that you guys don't even understand. FOR THE RECORD I WAS AVOIDING HIM! AND SO WHAT BELIEVE WHAT YOU WANT, IM NOT THE BIG SLUT YOU ALL WISH I WAS. FUCK ALL'YALL SMALL-TOWN-SIMPLE-MINDED-MUTHRA-FACKZZZZZZZZZZZZ |
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| Squirles with swollen nuts |
[Jun. 1st, 2006|03:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Newport Pointe | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sonic Youth - 'Cross The Breeze | ] |
Yes my friends, it's that wonderful time of the year when squirrels are running around with swollen balls making funny noises.
I hadn't seen squirrel nuts before, they were such clean animals in my head. NOW THERE DIRTY!
Rain makes me sleepy, plus I'm bored out of my mind in this office. Yet I'd rather be bored out of my mind then in my original office, busy as hell. I getting so fat.
Oh I'm back with Homar and I need to brake up with Aaron, which I really don't want to do. I like him alot, and I know it's just a matter of time til Homar turns back to his retarded self and goes on his "I DO WHAT I WANT!" attitude. That's not very fun. I have the smallest leash on him though. Bitch doesn't breath unless I authorize it. That's not very hot though. I'm submissive, not dominant. It is oh so lame. Hi, Jen, I know your reading. Me and Homar are just to fucken different, it's like I say "shot gun" and he says "wedding." That's off a song... anyways. Life goes on and I'll never know what could have been with me and Aaron. I guess me and Homar are getting married, two kids, and I get a puppy. Sounds like a fair deal to me.
*I'm Afraid Of Americans, I'm Afraid I Can't Help It* |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 23rd, 2006|11:16 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Ghetoville | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  fat | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Some industrial stuff on the radio. | ] |
Why am I constantly getting involved with military people?
I used to avoid them,
and now there EVERYWHERE!
I think it's Tampa.
WELL DUH!!!
It's a Military town.
All kinds of branches are based here.
I knew I didn't want to meet my ex
as soon as I found out he was in the Air Force.
I was like
"YUCKY!!!"
But I got sucked into it though.
They made him sound so awesome.
And he was,
and he wasn't,
and he's gone.
I've met Army people that have touched me in a non-sexual way.
Army I could never date.
Marines I could never date.
Yet one of my bestest friends is an ex-Marine.
She's freaking crazy,
She's freaking 40.
I don't know how old she is,
but she's older...
I still love her though.
I wish I wasn't as selfish as I am.
As I've always been.
Navy boys are DIRTY!!!
Going from port to port.
Yeah,
That thought didn't cross my mind till after
I was one of the ones at a port.
Horrible metaphor,
but yes,
I've sleeped with one.
He's awesome though and no one told me.
We have the same feet, you know.
He has the bluest eyes, you know.
He left his belt and his socks here, you know.
He hasn't called me in about 3 days you know.
I keep saying I don't want anything serious,
but how I wish he was deeply in love with only me.
My girl notions of love.
It doesn't exist.
Not amongst man,
not amongst the strong,
not amongst the solders,
not to me. |
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| I Could Never Date YOU! |
[May. 19th, 2006|01:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Tampon, FL | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Panic At The Disco - Don't Know The Titel | ] |
Yeah I only date older people.
Homar and I split up... yet again. But not to fear, my slush (slut/lush) ass is already dating someone else. Introducing... Aaron.
Aaron is an ex-navy guy, don't know what there called, but yeah. He is 32 and has a daughter. History repeating? might be... but not really. He's really cool. I think I like him more as a best bud than a sleeping bud. He's so soft though. I don't know. I still love Homar, but I'm sick of sitting around waiting for him to make his mind up about us, and then change it again. I don't know how he is going to react when I tell him I'm seeing someone. I love that it's not a steady think. I can do whatever I want, whenever I want. I've been hanging out with awsome people, getting wasted on a daily bases. I like my life.
Not so much the stress at work though, that I could do without. I hate having this office be the "corp" office. Those people are bitches! Do not like them. Some of them are cool though, like two, maybe one.
Well I'm at work and I really should be getting back it. Peace out RABBIT!
*Haven't You People Ever Heard Of Shutting The Goddam Door?" |
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| BORDE... MUST NOT... KILL! |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|03:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | R.E.M. - Radio Song | ] |
Why in the world would someone think it's a GREAT idea open a leasing office for 4 hours on a Sunday?!
That's what I'm currently doing, thank you very much. I'm dealing with every moron, and there mothers (quite literally), on the face of the earth today. Mac Gray is a BS company that doesn't know anything about washers and driers and that's all they do. I have a guy that swears that everyone in the office is conspiaring against him 'cause his black, and people steal his patio furniture for the same reason. It's funny. I still like my job though... not so much when it's only for 4 hours which seemed to be the longest 4 hours of my life. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for internet radio. THANK YOU!!!
Homar is unofficially my official boyfriend again... I think, but I'm sure he said he was. The man speaks in codes, I swear. I went to Sea World with him and Luna last Sunday and IT WAS AWESOME!!! I got to feed and touch some dolphins, I touched a penguin AND YOU HAVEN'T!!! I was more excited than the 3 year old. She quietly sat there staring at her shoes while I kept saying "WOW, DID YOU SEE THAT?! DID YOU?!" It was awesome, 'till I got sleepy and grumpy. Luna is back home now. Scuselbutt and I have been hanging out alot. I found out that he's jealous about me, specially since I moved out on my own and he can't keep an eye on me. I was quiet flattered, since he's not a jealous guy. No, but seriously, he's not, it's almost odd. When I slept with some other guy about a year ago, he was mad at me for 3 days and then he wanted to be my friend. I like him a lot. His like my best buddy, and he's funny and stuffin' stuff, which he's great at.
30 MORE MINUTES, IT'S ALMOST OVER!!! I'll have to remember to bring a DVD next Sunday.
*I Don't Know When I Got Bitter, But Love Is Surely Better When It's Gone* |
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| And here I am! |
[Mar. 17th, 2006|09:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  wired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | That song by Gwen Stefanie | ] |
Yup, I'm still in crappy ass FL.
Me and Homar broke up, but I decided to stay rather then run home to mommy (which I considered really really hard). Besides it's easier to torment Homar with my being here then if I were safe back home with my mom. He still calls and we still hang out and... what... not... I got an awsome new job... well I have two jobs. After a week of ariving in Tampon I got a job at The Home Depot! I met the most awesome people there and had a FREAKING BLAST at work. It still sucked being a cashier though. After all hell broke lose in my "love" life, I moved out of dickwads place and into my own personal hell. After all hell broke lose there I went out looking for a place of my own. And wouldn't you know it, I landed my self a job as a Leasing Agent equipt with everything and my own Apt!!! So yeah. I'm living the fully independent life and it's pretty awsome. I miss everyone back home every once in a while. But I know I'll be back. I just need to prove to my self that I can do it by myself and I don't need anyone to help me. Poop, I'm 22 and I was still depending on people to pay everything for me. THAT'S NOT COOL!
Now I have all kinds of new experience I can go home with and land me a killer job. I love my job though. I had NEVER EVER felt like there wasn't enough hours in the day till I started my job. It's awsome. I'm so glad I didn't go back home. Now my mom's all proud of me and so is my Nina's, and Homar is all pissed because my self improvement came after we broke up, lol. Besides I love the title, leasing AGENT! It says agent. Okay... no more cuban coffee for me... which by the way IS THE BOMB! I hate the bastered though, lol.
*Yeah I'd Have All The Money In The World, If I Was A Wealthy Girl* |
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| This Is The Dawning Of The Rest Of My Life. |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|02:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Strokes - Is This It? | ] |
*Goodbye Cruel World, I'm Leaving You Today, Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye All You People, There's Nothing You Can Say To Make Me Change My Mind, GOODBYE*
Well it shall be a while before I write in this again, but yeah, I am happy, and I need to fallow my heart and leave old memories to the wind. I am leaving for Tampa this Friday, and "there's nothing you can do to make me change my mind." I am in love and I am loved by someone who has stood by my side even in bad times. Who would have known that one visit to Denie's would end in this, another one of Evelyn's crazy ideas, another one of Homar's crazy ideas. I've sent him away so many times over, and yet here he is, waiting for Saturday, when I'll be in his arms again. I am so happy to have met him and I do owe it all to one friend, probably the only friend I'll never lose, only because she won't let me. I don't know what's going to happen, we have a two year plan that ends with him going to New York and me? well I don't know where I'll end up, but who knows. I think he's it.
I love you all.
The Bad Ass,
Evil One. |
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